Friday, January 2, 2009

New Year's Resolutions

I am not one for resolutions. I don't think I have ever really even set the goals for my year before. I don't even know what my goals would be. I guess everyone puts on their lists lose weight, save money, be happy, which are all great goals to have. I know for certain I can save money. Losing weight... maybe, unless that cookie at the store looks really good and will make me happy, which will not get me closer to the lose weight goal, but will get me closer to the be happy goal. (My view is that I would rather be happy and fat from cookies, than unhappy and cookie-repressed. )

The goals I have thought about about for this year were things I have no control over. Either they will happen or they won't. We want to start a family. This is one that we have no control over. In the great words of Charlotte on Sex and the City, we are reproductively challenged. It has been 3 years and 2 miscarriages. We have both been looked at and nothing seems to be the matter. The next step would be the scary fertility specialists or adoption. Both of which we will have to face one day in the future, but I am not sure if we are ready to do either right now. (the adoption one we are not financially able to do that. Gotta love money!)

Maybe this year we should not focus on the grown-up things, like fertility, but instead focus on fun things like Scotland with my Mom and Sisters, getting a new car, going on a cruise, buying a Coach bag I always think is too much money, having Travis buy some tripped out comic book toy. This year instead of worrying about the things I can't change, maybe I should just focus on the great things I have around me. Yes, that should be my resolution, I will not take for granted and wish away this year. I don't need to be skinnier, or richer. I should be more thankful and happy. So maybe I should just invite all my friends and family over and share a big ol bag of cookies and forget about all our grown up worries!

2 comments:

Janalyn and Rob said...

Amen! :)

Rachel said...

I hope 2009 brings you lots of joy and happiness!!
If adoption is the choice you guys decide, sometimes there are grants available through your employment. You can also google it online. There is also a $10,000 tax credit. Best of luck with everything! Our prayers are with you!